CERPEN: Love You Make Me Crazy

LOVE, you make me crazy – Cerpen (short story)
By: Kartini

I don’t know what did he think about. If we’re in relationship, we make up and we break up all the time but we’re not in relationship. We just friend. But now, I think that’s the break up time. I don’t know what he have known about me.
I have friend and she knows that he is my crush and I don’t know why did she told him about it. The worse, she tells everyone. 3 month I don’t know that people around were talking about me. After I know it, I asked my crush if he knows about that gossip. I explain him and tell a lie that my crush is not him. He trusts me but it makes me hurt. Yea, I should choose two choises. Still friend or become stranger and I choose still friend and make him never know the truth. It’s okay if it calls “Unsaid feeling”
He texted me everyday, I feel empty if just one night he didn’t text me. But now, since one week ago he didn’t text me. I feel loose. I don’t know, he changes again. I don’t know what do people around talking about me.
I try to pretend I’m okay. But inside, I feel so sad. I feel like someone who lost in the jungle and never find the way to out of it.
I’m missing him eventhough I can see him everyday. But he whose I met everyday wasn’t him in the past, wasn’t him at one week ago. Why? Are there any mistakes? Tell me, don’t be like that. I’m too scared to asked you why. Oh God, I’m addicted to him.
My crush…
I have a song for you.
Simple Plan – Addicted
I heard you’re doing okay
But I want you to know
I’m addic—I’m addicted to you
I can’t pretend I don’t care
When you don’t think about me
Do yout think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
But you left anyway
I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I’m addicted to you
Now it’s over, can’t forget what you said
And I never, want to do this again
Heartbreaker!! Heartbreaker!! Heartbreaker!!
Since the day I met youand after all we’ve been through
I’m still a, I’m addicted to you
I think you know that it’s true
I’d run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway
I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I’m addicted to you
Now it’s over, can’t forget what you said
And I never, want to do this again
Heartbreaker!! Heartbreaker!! Heartbreaker!!
How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don’t know why I’m still waiting
I can’t make  you mine
I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need  it
I’m addicted to you
I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I’m addcted to you
Now it’s over, can’t forget what you said
And I never, want to do this again
Heartbreaker!! Heartbreaker!! Heartbreaker!!
I’m addicted to you heartbreaker

Haha, that’s so crazy. I’m really want to scream in front of you and tell you that you’re the fucking thief that have stolen my heart and never give it back! You make me mad like a hell!
I have planed that my heart will be ready to get hurt start from I was in love with you. But I can’t stand to wait for your love is coming to my life. I’m not a wonder girl. I’m just an ordinary girl. My heart wasn’t made from iron but my heart was made from cotton. Hahahaha.
Haaahhh, no more galau. There are so many boy that want me to be their girl but I don’t want them. I can’t give them a fake hope. I think tell them the truth and hurt them now is better than never give them the clearness and make them waiting.
Sometimes I ask myself, “why God doesn’t make it easier? No one wants me, but he wants me like I want him.” But the other side of my self says, “if God did it, your life will be so flat. No conflict that’s so boring. Trust God, His timing is the best ever.”